I write in a Journal.
Maybe 2-3 times a month. Maybe not at all.
Depends upon how lazy I am.
But. I thought it would be "cool" if I underlined some important lines,
Just enough information to give you an idea on what I`m talking about,
But not exactly a clear insight into my life.
And I mixed them up so you don`t understand. :3
If you have any questions, and I think you care, I`ll answer.


People only believe what they want to...Or have I disowned them?...I swear that`s just how my face looks...I know that I am useless...I miss the way you whispered...I, on the other hand, didn`t care one bit...think of your happiness first rather than my own...even now you're hard to find...I don`t want to remember her for who she was when I knew her...[which we clearly are]..I`ve got to do it for..I guess you're not as perfect as how I saw you in my eyes..Afraid to dream...I remember that incident the most because I was so apathetic; like I honestly didn`t give a shit that...carried a sword...it`s better if I live alone for the rest of my life...I want to tell you something..Only on special occasions and when she feels she has to...his one and only true love..Or atleast that`s how it seems...a menace; an embarassment to man kind?..I have lost my appetite...that`s exactly what I`m not...much more confortable than the tight clothing that every girl is pressured into wearing...wrap yourself in a chain of sorrow...I don`t even think I understood what was happening...I`m depressed..Fuck. I forgot what that happy thing is...the main reason why I am the way I am is because of my parents..Your honesty didn't show...My memory is so terrible...How could you possibly expect me to be perfect?..it`s his fault he married a bitch...I have no purpose in life...What does it take for you to understand...really dislike school...I`d rather block out that stuff and just make her my own creation...Poison..I should express who I am, not hide myself under this shield of...with their idiocracy..Nothing matters,..you are a sick fucker;...it comes from my mom...Polluting their veins with stealth and greed...I felt wierd, kinda out of place...Blackening their hearts with vanity and hatred..Not once did anyone tell me everything was going to be alright...The end will come to those who wait..was worth 31.4 cents..I`m sorry...Amidst the fog and through the light...laughed at me, then she...I`d do anything to make sure that you are happy...I regret going to VJM for the first hald of grade 9...I can`t be there...Otherwise, I never cry...But something is bound to change. People don`t stay the same..."I won`t let you down, I promise."...simultaneously been injected into my veins, contaminating my heart, taking over my soul...It`s not like I`ve done anything to improve our relationship...I care about nothing; nothing matters...I would let her stab me,...a good liar...no reason to be happy..Played all of the same parts...real friends...Useless...I don`t know how to react or respond...Hatred that dwells deep inside of me...This is the time where I finally started to realize what was happening around me....The voices have stopped...I wish I had given my mother more sympathy before she died...I have never took into consideration the way my dad had felt about this...I am heartless...I can`t even live without you for 1 hour...I never seem to smile anymore...I am still worried...that`s when I stopped pretending to be all happy..doubt I will ever have a REAL best friend...I`m a heartless hypocritical liar...I`m bad for procrastination...I just have to remember that...Maybe have a few cats...staying alive..first time talking in a month and about a week...I guess people get the impression that...nobody has ever expressed their feelings to me before...I have "no idea"...I`m probably way too apathetic for my own good...which I couldn`t respond to]...I have the nerve to make him wait...I love the way I hate myself...The ones who are suppose to love you the most and be with you for your whole life, and know you better than anyone; they told me that I am useless, so it must be true, right?...I`m just not thinking as much as I am doing, obviously...I s'ose it`s time for me to grow up now, huh?...This is who I am...I`d be happiest then...Hell, I probably won`t even be thankful...apparantly, I was really smart and good at art...the slowest to finish the course...I hate you, you sly cock sucker...


Just remember, these are direct quotes, and unfinished sentences.
Most of them are the complete opposite of what you think.
This is just to screw you up. :] I don`t know why I did it.
But it took a hell of a long time to scramble all of those. Haha.
There`s quotes in here from like. 2 years ago.
So my opinions on a lot of these things have changed,
But some are from last night [staying up 'till 2am writing, yay.]